She remains in good spirits. Although, in pain and swollen, still provided me with a smile this morning.
Before Sarah was bravely carted off to have her surgery, she handed me her sketchbook. She had kept busy sketching scenes of beautiful fields and horses while waiting patiently to submit herself, into the Doctor's capable hands, to remove that offending part which has been causing her daily loss of sleep and sickness. I noticed along the next page she had begun to journal her thoughts. They were interrupted, but the thoughts were deep on the subject of suffering... and questioning why it has to happen in a life.
I could not help but finish her sentences in hope that she would read them later and find comfort in the hope that suffering produces endurance and endurance helps us to finish the race set before us in life... it draws us closer to Him who suffered unimaginable pain and death to give us the gift of everlasting life.
Pain and suffering can draw us nearer to Christ...it brings us to the realization that without help from Him, we are inadequate and helpless to control... it brings us to our knees and reminds us of who we are and who we depend upon the most.
Yet pain can also draw us farther from Him as we shake our fist in anger, "it's not fair"... allowing ourselves to become disillusioned and hopeless.
It is a choice we make... choosing joy, (instead of wallowing in worry and self pity, amidst life's unavoidable circumstances). It comes from a steadfast faith and decision to follow Christ's lead and submit to, rather than hide from, pain. Pain is never enjoyable...it is always difficult and most always long to suffer through... but if we have a mindset of eternity, like Christ, we can submit to our suffering in an attitude of joy, knowing that we have hope in the greater good that our suffering will bring.
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers,
whenever you face trials of many kinds,
3because you know that the testing of your faith
develops perseverance.
4Perseverance must finish its work
so that you may be mature and complete,
not lacking anything.
whenever you face trials of many kinds,
3because you know that the testing of your faith
develops perseverance.
4Perseverance must finish its work
so that you may be mature and complete,
not lacking anything.
James 1:2-4 NIV

